Omg! Sorry this last update took so long.. well over six months, I'll give you guys the same rundown I gave my dentist LOL
In October/November/December I was simultaneously having the time of my life and struggling to keep my head on straight. We were finalizing our part in Rococo Beat ( digital copies available here) and prepping for Ursa Major (2025 tickets available soon) and finalizing and handing out flyers for Dread Majesty's debut ( support them on bandcamp!). All super fun I had a real blast but I ended up needing a new car so I took on more stuff at work, ended up getting a promotion and it very much took over my life! It was one of those you work even on your days off type jobs and your 8 hour shifts somehow always turned into 10, 12 hour shifts. It was bitter work, the taste soured further as the issues of Rococo Beat made their way into the populace and people would run into me like "i loved your part of the zine!" and "i saw you in rococo beat!" it was cool it was sweet but made my promotion feel like a knife in the heart. While running errands a well know actor from a well known kid's show approached me about a part in a popular kids movie and I was basically like
"hey, I'm 30 years old! I can't play a teenager! Plus I have to work a double the day of the audition" I took his card and number then went on with my life.
There was seeds of this feeling throughout the months that I was doing something wrong, that I was ignoring my own heart, crushing my own soul! I had bought and paid off my new car, I had savings and could buy what I wanted whenever, this was supposed to be comfortable? This is what people my age want and need!
As the spring crept in I began training the cutest alt girls, they were smart, funny and creative. They had reminded me of the people I loved, the people I once surrounded myself with, the sort of person I was and ultimately am. I could tell the other higher ups didn't like them, they had "too much autonomy". Constantly they'd scold me for not being strict with my team but we had the best numbers in the company, the best in the district, consistently number one. Being the best wasn't enough for them they wanted me to change, no more peace signing at my people, no more silly hair clips and inside jokes with my team. When I took time away for Fanime Con I was still answering work calls and emails and my numbers couldn't get higher so they needed something to criticize, I found their misery rubbed off on me. In that time I could have been renamed "exhaustion" and the name would have fit fine. Ultimately and recently I stepped down, that's when I found myself here again.
I felt like a loser because of work and not being to handle everything but I really am happy to be back at the Fancy Love Club, the lesson here is I guess never take a job for the money even though the whole point of jobs is to have money or maybe take a really miserable high paying job for a little bit and live below your means so you can have saving and then go back to whatever your real calling is.
Anyways hope you guys are ready for new stuff! I have so many ideas and so much more time! I didn't realize how pent up I was LOL
Updates will go as follows!
- necklace/ring update (when the blog post goes live)
- hairclip/earrings update (mid August)
- fuzzy bows and canotier/headband update (potentially also august)
- clothing update (probably September)
I also might do a rerun of the Dead Mall sweater or debut a new design I haven't decided yet lol.